I'm sorry I haven't updated your guys sooner, I have been really busy with school work that I found out I'm a little bit behind if I want to get my certificate on time. Tuesday of last week I went down to New Orleans Tulane University to see the urologist that would be doing the surgery to give me the bladder augmentation that I've been wanting for so long now. Let me just give you a detailed instructions of my day basically!
We left the house around 8 o'clock, did not get there until around 12 and my appointment wasn't until 2 o'clock. So we ate lunch which took this a good hour because we ate in the cafeteria. I have to give them an A+ on the cafeteria food because they have a variety of different foods from different cultures that you can choose from. So we went to the lobby around 130 because they told us we needed to be there 30 minutes early to allow paperwork time. We waited in the lobby for three hours before finally getting called back into her room, where we waited another hour before actually getting to see the doctor.
The doctor came in and told me that I was a candidate for the surgery but he wanted to try a surpubic and that didn't work come back any year and try something else. Obviously that is not what I want I want to go ahead and get the surgery done and do like my urologist in Baton Rouge agreed. She wants to go ahead and do a bladder augmentation where you expand the capacity of my bladder, so up my urethra, and make a port into my belly button which I can catheterize myself. That's not what this doctor wanted to do and it made all of us so mad because if we tried to count them but not what we wanted to do you would just stop us right there. He basically told me that I did not have a choice that he was going to do what he wanted to do. 
 
I'm sorry but that's not how it works, this is my body and therefore it is my choice

​Needless to say another timely left that office everyone was so mad that they were exhausted and took us another five hours to get home. After a very long day before had no answers and when the surgery would be and if they were even going to be a surgery at all. While I'm waiting on my urologist to get back to me in Baton Rouge I am continuously leaking which is causing skin issues! What am I supposed to do now!? I guess it's back to the waiting game for a while.

Update on my foot I burned to a few weeks ago!
My foot is looking tremendous I am on antibiotics for a UTI that is also for skin infections which will help it from getting infected. The skin pressure ulcer under my pinky tell my right foot that recently got healed broken open again because of the blood blister. We think it is because my foot cannot heal all the way the first time therefore left an opening before a calloused over. I do not know why my body's defense is calloused over everyone might unfortunately it is, so I would have to be more careful and watch the way it heals.

I also started the application to become a service dog owner! It is a waiting list of two years but I figure in two years I should be able to drive, have my own house, and had everything settled down enough to go train for a service dog. It would help me tremendously in the long run and have a dog dedicate pick up things that I drop on the floor.
On the positive note I had filled out the application to send back to the people in Houston to do the driving evaluation. All I have to do now is wait for their reply and get my driving permit. Jena offers a driving school that does the class once a month so I am trying to get a hold of them to see what I need to do in order to do that first. I have to have my drivers permit before I can go and see them as requested on the application. All I can say is wish me luck!

This morning Derek brought home a kitten that we think is about four days old! He found it in the middle of the road and didn't want it to die so he brought it home. We have been hunting someone to take the kitten hopefully they can either give it to her mama cat or can feed it like it is supposed to be fed every few hours.
​I also had to go to the dentist this morning, this would be the first time in at least for five years that I've went to a dentist. I know that is really bad but when I lost my Medicaid I could not get coverage for my dental. The only reason I went to the dentist this time is because I have one of my teeth hurting me really bad. He said that I have some cavities that need to be feel, I need a good cleaning, and I have one of my teeth that need to be extracted as soon as possible because it is abscesses and pushed into the middle of my mouth. So needless to say Wednesday I will be going to an oral surgeon to have one of my teeth removed, he also said that it won't be long and I will need another one that being forced into the middle of my mouth again removed as well.
in the morning we are on our way to New Orleans to go see the surgeon about getting my bladder augmentation done! I am so cited to have this chapter completed so I can move onto learn to drive so that I can live on my own with my father is finished with his house. I hope everything goes well and I do not need anything else from me besides the schedule the surgery. It is a 4 Hour drive there and a four hour drive back so tomorrow it will be a long long day

I have been living with someone else since the day I came into this world and now at twenty two years old I'm still having to live with someone. Most teens get to move out of their parents house when they turn eighteen, some go to college and some go straight to work. I unfortunately was never granted that independence because of my spinal cord injury. I felt like I was just standing still while all of my friends were moving forward with their lives; kind of the way I did when everyone turned sixteen and was able to drive only worse.
I am finally getting that independence after all these years in about six months to a year. My father is almost done building his house on Little River so I will be able to move in once renovations are completed in my house. Here's the things that will have to be done before I can move in:

1. ​Finish Dad's house
2. Do renovations on mine
3. Learn to drive
4. Set up home health

​Any holiday is very difficult now that my mom has passed away but Mother's Day is one of the hardest but I've dealt with. Everyone gets to celebrate their mothers except for those who have had our mothers pass away and I hate to say it but it never gets any easier. I went to visit my mom today at her grave and for once I didn't cry not one time. I can't say that it wasn't hard for me not to crime because it was so hard but I know my mom is in a better place where the disease had affected her mind could no longer do her any harm. I haven't picked out my mom's headstone and it's been over a year since she died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head. I can't bring myself to go out to the shop and look at them because I know it is going to be so hard to do. I'm going to cry probably the entire time I'm there. I want my mom's headstone to be absolutely beautiful like the person she was when she was alive in the person she is right now in heaven but I don't know exactly what I want.
I want to wish my mom in heaven a happy Mother's Day and for her to know that I love her very much. I miss you more than you could know and I wish you were here to celebrate with me. We can celebrate everything that's happened since you went away and that the independence that I have regained and I'm continuing to gain every day.

​I had been through so much in my life, in the short 22 years that I feel that I have more life experience than one person should and could handle. I am stronger than anyone could ever imagine, I take after my mom in that sense. I’m going to start doing videos again hopefully next week. What would you be interested in seeing?