Any holiday is very difficult now that my mom has passed away but Mother's Day is one of the hardest but I've dealt with. Everyone gets to celebrate their mothers except for those who have had our mothers pass away and I hate to say it but it never gets any easier. I went to visit my mom today at her grave and for once I didn't cry not one time. I can't say that it wasn't hard for me not to crime because it was so hard but I know my mom is in a better place where the disease had affected her mind could no longer do her any harm. I haven't picked out my mom's headstone and it's been over a year since she died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head. I can't bring myself to go out to the shop and look at them because I know it is going to be so hard to do. I'm going to cry probably the entire time I'm there. I want my mom's headstone to be absolutely beautiful like the person she was when she was alive in the person she is right now in heaven but I don't know exactly what I want.
I want to wish my mom in heaven a happy Mother's Day and for her to know that I love her very much. I miss you more than you could know and I wish you were here to celebrate with me. We can celebrate everything that's happened since you went away and that the independence that I have regained and I'm continuing to gain every day.
I want to wish my mom in heaven a happy Mother's Day and for her to know that I love her very much. I miss you more than you could know and I wish you were here to celebrate with me. We can celebrate everything that's happened since you went away and that the independence that I have regained and I'm continuing to gain every day.
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