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Life is a highway...

5/30/2020

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Hey guys!
So I’m trying to get back into the habit of writing to you all more often. Things have been like a circus at my house. I have a construction zone! Here’s a run down of stuff that’s been going on around Trout:
  • My new back door got put in by my dad. The new door was eight inches smaller than my original door so the hole had to be filled in and painted. Still have to finish spackling the holes and do another coat of paint.
  • Three concrete ramps have been poured around my house so that I can get all the way around my house. My boyfriend done two ramps the first weekend he was here and the last one last weekend. They are completely finished besides handrail on one as a guide.
  • My closet carpet got pulled up last weekend and new flooring put down by my boyfriend.
  • My outdoor lights have been put up around my house finally after a year. My boyfriend done them the first weekend he spent with me. The only thing we haven’t done is turn them all on 🙈
  • My bedroom is currently in the process of a makeover too. My bedroom walls are getting painted and the carpet is coming up to be able to lay down the laminate flooring. I can’t get into bed because of the carpet and my bed touches the floor so my hoyer can’t roll under it. I’m in the process of saving up for the right kind of bed I need.
  • The handrails on the back porch ramp was stabilized so they don’t wobble anymore. This was another thing my boyfriend done the first weekend he was here.
  • Last weekend the glass in my front door got knocked out when the door closed. We knew it was going to happen but just didn’t know when it was going to happen. My boyfriend fixed it when he got here last weekend. It’s only a temporary solution until I can get another door.
As you guys can tell my house has been crazy. If you know me, you know I like to stay organized and right now there is chaos everywhere! There’s still a lot of projects that have to be done but getting there slowly after a year of being in the house. I can’t wait till I can finally show you guys my house! (No I haven’t forgotten.)
So I’ve been having bowel and stomach trouble for about two years now since my last major surgery. I have finally come to the difficult decision to go with a colostomy bag. It will open up a lot of independence for me and so many more doors. I’m in a relationship with someone that I want to be Intimate with him right now with my issues that I’m having I can’t be so this is definitely the right steps going forward for me. I have done my research multiple times and still have come to that conclusion so I think I’ve made up my mind. I called my gastroenterologist and have set an appointment to get all the necessary test done in order to be able to see a surgeon. I go July 21 to have a colonoscopy and upper scope done. This is the first step. I wish it was sooner but due to the virus that is going around America right now that was the soonest appointment they could get me in to the surgical center. After all the test come back and make sure there’s nothing wrong with my G.I. tract that could be causing the problems that I’m having we will move forward on discussing a colostomy. There is only one problem that my doctor has brought up to me so far about trying to find a surgeon. I am 25 years old and if there’s nothing physically wrong with my G.I. track the surgeon is most likely not going to agree to do what I’m asking but if it comes down to that I will just find a different surgeon that is willing to sit down and let me explain why I’m warning what I’m warning. I have also decided to stop breeding sugar gliders for the time being. Since moving into my house I have had a lot of trouble with babies dying on me and right now I cannot take anymore heartbreak. I know maybe in a few years when I’m finally out of school and have more time I will go back to breathing but right now it’s like a sign that Jesus is telling me to not put so much on my plate. I love having babies but the heartbreak is too much for me to handle right now. I’ve lost 5 babies since February with no true cause. So for now I’m stopping.
I’m halfway through this term with A’s in both classes. I was really worried about being able to keep up my 4.0 GPA but so far I’m still keeping good grades. I’m looking forward to continuing my education but I’m ready for a break. It’s been a long year with only three weeks off scattered out throughout my year. The way my school is sixteen weeks and a week off. That’s a semester then one week off before the next semester. I may end up taking one of my eight week terms off so that I can have my surgery and recovery without having to worry about trying to do school work too. It’s honestly going to depend on how my terms fall in line for the surgery schedule when I finally make it to that point.
That’s all for now guys!
-April
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Here’s to Love...

5/18/2020

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Hey guys!
So I have an announcement but don’t really wanna jinx it just yet so I’m just going to tell you about it without mentioning names.
I have started a relationship with a guy that is truly the best person to ever be with me. He’s younger than I am but age is just a number right? I have always been more attracted to older men because every experience I’ve had dating younger boys have ended badly. I’m not saying that even the older men don’t play games but in my experience all of the younger men have just wanted sex and nothing else. If you know anything about me, you know I’m not the type of person to give up sex to just anyone. I have to be able to trust my partner completely because of my situation.
I also have a habit of picking men that are just messed up in the head. The last person I was with wanted me to stop using the movement that I have back just so he could control me. The man that I’m with now is the total opposite. He wants to see me walk again and to keep recovering. He wants to push me and will still love me if I never truly make it back to walking.
I see the way he is with the kids and know that one day he is going to be an amazing father. That is something that is really important to me because my biggest dream is to become a mother to my own children. It’s something that I have wanted for years now. I know that it’s still too early to say he’s the one I’m going to be with for the rest of my life but I have a really good feeling about this relationship.
He is by my side no matter the situation and trust me I can get into some scary ones. This weekend, the first weekend he spent with me he got to see my blood pressure drop so low that I was unresponsive for several minutes. I wasn’t passed out but I couldn’t see or hear anything for about five good minutes. It’s scary and being my partner comes with a lot of stuff that I have no control over. It’s a sucky situation but he was there next to me the entire time and helped Jessica try to fix it.
He volunteered to do a bunch of projects that have been just sitting around because there’s no one here to do it. He put in two solid concrete ramps to be able to get all the way around my house, put up lights so I could see when I take my night walks, cooked on the grill, and drove us girls around all weekend. That’s different for me and I’m not going to lie I love it. He told me before he left that if I make him a honey-do-list of things I wanna get done he’d be more than happy to do them. The best part is that he doesn’t want sex, or anything in return other than to make me happy.
I have my worries that hold me back a bit from falling to hard because of his age but I have to push myself out of my comfort zone and just go with the flow. I refuse to let the devil get inside of my head and ruin this potentially beautiful relationship I am in because of my fears. Worry is the work of the devil.
So far he is the best boyfriend I’ve ever had and I can’t wait to see where this goes. Today, here’s to love 🥂
-April
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    Paralyzed from the neck down after an ATV rollover at 14, April Otwell is beating the odds the doctors gave her. She's a blogger, fantasy writer, college student, sugar glider guardian and spinal cord injury survivor.  She's even writing her first fiction novel!

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