I just finished watching the movie You Before Me on my Amazon prime membership. I have honestly been dreading watching this movie because I knew what the ending held therefore it made me angry that he chose not to live. I had made up my mind I would never watch it because it gives everyone that is not in a wheelchair the sense that we should not be able to live. I have honestly changed my mind.
There was laughs and there were times I wanted to cry but all in all the movie was fantastic. It gives everyone a small peak inside a quadriplegic's life. I may not be a complete quadriplegic like him but I was like him for a while. I was unable to move anything from the neck down for a few weeks until I started regaining some of my movement back. I struggled with the same debate whether I wanted to live unable to move anything from the neck down or die and be free. To be completely honest with all of you here I still continue to struggle with that, I have days where I want to do nothing more than curl up and die so I will be able to lose this dead body and be able to do things that I used too. I also have my great days where I am grateful to be alive and I want to be there for other people that is in similar situations. I have been all over the United States since my injury and I want to continue to be able to go places even around the world despite my disability.
I can tell you my decision would have been the same thing if I was unable to move anything from the neck down. I believe that is no way to live with hardly any quality of life. I don't speak for all quadriplegic but in my case I would not want to live that way. I am so very grateful for the movement I have gotten and I am continuing to receive from God. I hope one that I'm able to fully recover before I get my wings.
She wanted so bad to save him and I totally get that because I would want someone to try their best and save me if it was me. She wanted to show him that she could give him a very happy life. She honestly had no idea what was going on inside of his head because those same thoughts that were running through his run through my mind constantly. He was only two years into his accident while I am going on nine years. I can no longer remember what it feels like to run my toes through the sand, I cannot remember what it's like to get up on my own and get out of bed on my own and have a normal day anymore. I get to sit here and wonder what my life would've been like if my accident never happened. I get to remember what it was like before and know that I will never have that again. All I have to hang onto is the smiles and the laughs that I've had along the way and the possibility of having a cure for this paralysis in my lifetime so that I am able to do those things again.
If you have a loved one that has a spinal cord injury it want a small glimpse into what they go through on a daily basis I recommend you watch this movie. If you read my blog and have never seen or dealt with anyone with a spinal cord injury I also recommend you watch this movie. It gives you a little insight as to everything that you're taking for granted whether you mean to are not. I took everything I had for granted and I have to watch everyone around me take what they have for granted. Live every day like it's your last or at least live everyday like it's your last to be able to move your own body or take care of your own self. You never know when it will end.
There was laughs and there were times I wanted to cry but all in all the movie was fantastic. It gives everyone a small peak inside a quadriplegic's life. I may not be a complete quadriplegic like him but I was like him for a while. I was unable to move anything from the neck down for a few weeks until I started regaining some of my movement back. I struggled with the same debate whether I wanted to live unable to move anything from the neck down or die and be free. To be completely honest with all of you here I still continue to struggle with that, I have days where I want to do nothing more than curl up and die so I will be able to lose this dead body and be able to do things that I used too. I also have my great days where I am grateful to be alive and I want to be there for other people that is in similar situations. I have been all over the United States since my injury and I want to continue to be able to go places even around the world despite my disability.
I can tell you my decision would have been the same thing if I was unable to move anything from the neck down. I believe that is no way to live with hardly any quality of life. I don't speak for all quadriplegic but in my case I would not want to live that way. I am so very grateful for the movement I have gotten and I am continuing to receive from God. I hope one that I'm able to fully recover before I get my wings.
She wanted so bad to save him and I totally get that because I would want someone to try their best and save me if it was me. She wanted to show him that she could give him a very happy life. She honestly had no idea what was going on inside of his head because those same thoughts that were running through his run through my mind constantly. He was only two years into his accident while I am going on nine years. I can no longer remember what it feels like to run my toes through the sand, I cannot remember what it's like to get up on my own and get out of bed on my own and have a normal day anymore. I get to sit here and wonder what my life would've been like if my accident never happened. I get to remember what it was like before and know that I will never have that again. All I have to hang onto is the smiles and the laughs that I've had along the way and the possibility of having a cure for this paralysis in my lifetime so that I am able to do those things again.
If you have a loved one that has a spinal cord injury it want a small glimpse into what they go through on a daily basis I recommend you watch this movie. If you read my blog and have never seen or dealt with anyone with a spinal cord injury I also recommend you watch this movie. It gives you a little insight as to everything that you're taking for granted whether you mean to are not. I took everything I had for granted and I have to watch everyone around me take what they have for granted. Live every day like it's your last or at least live everyday like it's your last to be able to move your own body or take care of your own self. You never know when it will end.
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