You have to take care of all of your body and not just the outside.
I'm a person that has feelings, I'm not some robot or a veggie! I'm just like you but I cannot use most of my body. I hate when someone starts to stare at me I only just smile as they pass me by where ever we are. I cry, get mad, smile, laugh, and have all the same emotions just like you. I've been put to the test the last week or so with what's happened with my mom. I've never really had to think about the distance future where my mom is not able to take care of me and our animals.
It's hit me really hard like someone has hit me and knocked the breath out of me. I have to think about what will need to be done when that time has come, and after my mom is gone. I hate to think about when my mom will leave me to be with God and my mom's mom Annette. I cannot help but start to tear up but I know that one day I will have to plan this so she knows that I'm in good hands. I love her so much and I don't want to loose her ever.
As you age you start putting stress on your body and you may not even know you have. The bones can become brittle or even start to cause you severe pain from the where and tear you've been putting on them. When I was little and my parents were still married I didn't really have my father in my life, just when he would call every few weeks. He was overseas as a oild field manager. It was left up to my mom to take care of not only me but the inside cleaning but doing the grass, fixing anything that was broken and that is too much stress on you body. It may not show at the time you're putting the stress on but once you get older the signs of everything you've ever done can present yourself.
When my accident happened I was not really fit, I hate running because I could not go fast and run straight. I was always outside doing cartwheels or something so I was healthy. Now my posture is really bad, I've gained so much weight (though lately I have lost a good amount of weight), my hips are cooked pretty bad, have the onset of scoliosis. I cannot imagine what all of these problems are going to do to my body later in life. I've been weaning off some of my medicine and it's doing really good surprisingly. There's no extra spasticity. I have been leaning to my left more which is the opposite of the previous scoliosis from back in high school. I don't have any pictures right now but my head hung off of the right side of my headrest that if someone would open the door they would've hit me. I'm seeing more clonus since being off some of my medication but I think it's just because I'm so tight.
Good night! I can hardly keep my eyes open.
-A
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