Learning..

So if any of you are The Vampire Diaries fans you know that in season six Damon had to let go of Elena, the love of his life, until Bonnie, his best friend, died. Elena's coma has been linked to Bonnie so that Elena will only wake up from that coma once Bonnie has died. Now in season seven Damon is having to learn who he is without Elena in his life until she returns. I am going through something similar now that my mom has passed away.
She's been in my life each and every day since I was born, that's about 7,700 days. She's been a mom, role model, support system, caregiver, and my best friend. She's been so much to me and for that I'm grateful. I know some people don't have that in their lives ever and I consider myself lucky. When my accident happened I was just a child becoming a young lady but I didn't get the chance to go find myself like most teenagers. I missed out on those years but I got to spend them with my mom. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing but I became who my mom wanted me to be, and in a way I was scared to show her the kind of person that I wanted to become.
​I don't know what kind of person I want to be yet, I'm still finding out who I am and who knows where that will take me but I'm excited to find out. I just ended a relationship that I was excited to have because it's just not the right time. Now is the time to discover who I am without someone else. I have so many things that I want to accomplish before trying to let some other person in to be with who I become.