Today started very early for me; like at 1 am early. I went to bed way to damn early (9:30) so needless to say I woke up at about 1! Oh great now what am I going to do for five and a half hours while everyone else just sleeps? Absolutely nothing is the answer to that question. I laid there trying not to think about too much and focus only on going back to sleep. Well it so totally didn't work. Here I am wide awake so damn early with nothing to do but stare at the wall and think. So much to think about but most of it I didn't even want to think about.
So I decide to play on my phone doing something just to get my mind off of everything else. Damn, all I hear is a clump where my phone hits the floor. Wonderful! Now I'm stuck in one spot with nothing to do but lay there. So I do just that; lay there. I toss and turn with my head trying to get myself comfortable so maybe just maybe I can go to sleep. That doesn't happen at all. I may have dozed off for a hour but that's about it. I hear every little noise and look up. I guess I had my glider babies on the mind. Shit. Derek comes out of the bedroom to get something to eat. So I pretend to be asleep but I can hear everything he was doing. Well after he went back to bed I just sat there again. Hours pass by without sleep and I'm just sitting there. My feet are having a pure fit for some damn reason. Hell if I know.
As six thirty rolls around I decide to sit up and play with my necklace until someone else on up and could get my phone. So after what felt like an hour Derek comes out of the bedroom and starts the coffee. I've decided to completely stop drinking coffee because of all the memories with momma. Okay sure maybe one day I'll go back to drinking it but not right now. I settle for hot chocolate. He makes me a grilled cheese with some tea. I have to say he's made me breakfast just about every morning since everything went down. He's a good guy when he wants to be and he can be a asshole when he wants to be too. He's so much like a little kid that it's not funny. One minute you love him then the next you could just strangle him.
So our day begins with getting Brantyn up and ready for school which is a struggle almost every day. He cried and says that he doesn't feel good or that his legs hurt. He's five years old as of yesterday and he's at the age that the growing pains will start. He's going to be in some real pain when one of them start to kick in during the night. I remember JC having them all the time and he was up most of the night crying because his legs hurt him so bad. I don't remember my growing pains if I had any and Momma's not here for me to ask. Once Brantyn is on the school bus we kinda have a little time to our selves to get fully awake. Of course I am already awake and have been for hours.
The temperature outside is just right so out on the back porch we go and watch the world go by. Donna, Jessica's mom, is a nurse and EMT so if we need something we call her. I forgot that she was coming over to help give me a bath. Yuck! I hate getting baths. I get cold so easily when the bath is over and we had just done one like two days ago. I didn't do anything to get dirty so why bother giving me another bath? So when she comes she just stops by to say she's going to go finish some paperwork then come back. So she leaves again, yay! No bath yet. So while she does that we go wash my hair.
When she comes back we end up just sitting there on the porch just talking about trauma things that we have seen and seen on the tv. I tell her that before my accident I wanted to be a trauma technician so bad. Well now I'm a trauma patient. We discuss some really gross things that I won't go into detail about anyway. So once she leaves we just relax most of the day.
Uncle Mike levels out the spot where my apartment is going to go. Now all that's left is setting the building up and wiring it. Yes! So close. Daddy said they would work on it first thing in the morning so once Jessica and I get done in Alexandria we could go inside and start to work on the inside. I'm so excited!!!!! I get to go with her to the baby doctor and hear the heartbeat! So cool.
I've been having baby fever for the last couple of years because everyone I knew was having kids and I felt left out. I know trying to have kids in my condition would be hard but I believe that I could do it. So I've been thinking a lot about it. Well now it's perfect because I'll be living under the same roof as a newborn and get to see it all. Just my luck.
So I decide to play on my phone doing something just to get my mind off of everything else. Damn, all I hear is a clump where my phone hits the floor. Wonderful! Now I'm stuck in one spot with nothing to do but lay there. So I do just that; lay there. I toss and turn with my head trying to get myself comfortable so maybe just maybe I can go to sleep. That doesn't happen at all. I may have dozed off for a hour but that's about it. I hear every little noise and look up. I guess I had my glider babies on the mind. Shit. Derek comes out of the bedroom to get something to eat. So I pretend to be asleep but I can hear everything he was doing. Well after he went back to bed I just sat there again. Hours pass by without sleep and I'm just sitting there. My feet are having a pure fit for some damn reason. Hell if I know.
As six thirty rolls around I decide to sit up and play with my necklace until someone else on up and could get my phone. So after what felt like an hour Derek comes out of the bedroom and starts the coffee. I've decided to completely stop drinking coffee because of all the memories with momma. Okay sure maybe one day I'll go back to drinking it but not right now. I settle for hot chocolate. He makes me a grilled cheese with some tea. I have to say he's made me breakfast just about every morning since everything went down. He's a good guy when he wants to be and he can be a asshole when he wants to be too. He's so much like a little kid that it's not funny. One minute you love him then the next you could just strangle him.
So our day begins with getting Brantyn up and ready for school which is a struggle almost every day. He cried and says that he doesn't feel good or that his legs hurt. He's five years old as of yesterday and he's at the age that the growing pains will start. He's going to be in some real pain when one of them start to kick in during the night. I remember JC having them all the time and he was up most of the night crying because his legs hurt him so bad. I don't remember my growing pains if I had any and Momma's not here for me to ask. Once Brantyn is on the school bus we kinda have a little time to our selves to get fully awake. Of course I am already awake and have been for hours.
The temperature outside is just right so out on the back porch we go and watch the world go by. Donna, Jessica's mom, is a nurse and EMT so if we need something we call her. I forgot that she was coming over to help give me a bath. Yuck! I hate getting baths. I get cold so easily when the bath is over and we had just done one like two days ago. I didn't do anything to get dirty so why bother giving me another bath? So when she comes she just stops by to say she's going to go finish some paperwork then come back. So she leaves again, yay! No bath yet. So while she does that we go wash my hair.
When she comes back we end up just sitting there on the porch just talking about trauma things that we have seen and seen on the tv. I tell her that before my accident I wanted to be a trauma technician so bad. Well now I'm a trauma patient. We discuss some really gross things that I won't go into detail about anyway. So once she leaves we just relax most of the day.
Uncle Mike levels out the spot where my apartment is going to go. Now all that's left is setting the building up and wiring it. Yes! So close. Daddy said they would work on it first thing in the morning so once Jessica and I get done in Alexandria we could go inside and start to work on the inside. I'm so excited!!!!! I get to go with her to the baby doctor and hear the heartbeat! So cool.
I've been having baby fever for the last couple of years because everyone I knew was having kids and I felt left out. I know trying to have kids in my condition would be hard but I believe that I could do it. So I've been thinking a lot about it. Well now it's perfect because I'll be living under the same roof as a newborn and get to see it all. Just my luck.
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