We went by the cemetery today before going on to the wake, which it looked okay as far as looks go. I just couldn't really think about momma being in the grave itself but it was as I expected it. I don't want to go back until I'm ready to face the fact that she's gone.
I got to wear boots for the first time in a long time which made me feel like a normal person in a wheelchair. Normally I feel like some weird thing that needs protection or something. I hate that so much. I'm a normal person just need the wheelchair to get around and a little help sometime. I wonder what people did if I just stopped doing anything for myself. I want to be seen as a normal adult just like everyone else is seen at my age. Grr how that pissed me off and still does.