So I have an announcement but don’t really wanna jinx it just yet so I’m just going to tell you about it without mentioning names.
I have started a relationship with a guy that is truly the best person to ever be with me. He’s younger than I am but age is just a number right? I have always been more attracted to older men because every experience I’ve had dating younger boys have ended badly. I’m not saying that even the older men don’t play games but in my experience all of the younger men have just wanted sex and nothing else. If you know anything about me, you know I’m not the type of person to give up sex to just anyone. I have to be able to trust my partner completely because of my situation.
I also have a habit of picking men that are just messed up in the head. The last person I was with wanted me to stop using the movement that I have back just so he could control me. The man that I’m with now is the total opposite. He wants to see me walk again and to keep recovering. He wants to push me and will still love me if I never truly make it back to walking.
I see the way he is with the kids and know that one day he is going to be an amazing father. That is something that is really important to me because my biggest dream is to become a mother to my own children. It’s something that I have wanted for years now. I know that it’s still too early to say he’s the one I’m going to be with for the rest of my life but I have a really good feeling about this relationship.
He is by my side no matter the situation and trust me I can get into some scary ones. This weekend, the first weekend he spent with me he got to see my blood pressure drop so low that I was unresponsive for several minutes. I wasn’t passed out but I couldn’t see or hear anything for about five good minutes. It’s scary and being my partner comes with a lot of stuff that I have no control over. It’s a sucky situation but he was there next to me the entire time and helped Jessica try to fix it.
He volunteered to do a bunch of projects that have been just sitting around because there’s no one here to do it. He put in two solid concrete ramps to be able to get all the way around my house, put up lights so I could see when I take my night walks, cooked on the grill, and drove us girls around all weekend. That’s different for me and I’m not going to lie I love it. He told me before he left that if I make him a honey-do-list of things I wanna get done he’d be more than happy to do them. The best part is that he doesn’t want sex, or anything in return other than to make me happy.
I have my worries that hold me back a bit from falling to hard because of his age but I have to push myself out of my comfort zone and just go with the flow. I refuse to let the devil get inside of my head and ruin this potentially beautiful relationship I am in because of my fears. Worry is the work of the devil.
So far he is the best boyfriend I’ve ever had and I can’t wait to see where this goes. Today, here’s to love 🥂